Walking to class today (keyword walking) with my boyfriend, the sun shining with a slight breeze, I felt nothing but bliss. Any student understands that going to classes suck regardless of if you are interested in the content. Just knowing that you have that obligation and are subsequently getting graded on it gives you an uneasy feeling.
As I reached my English 202 class, the most dreaded and inevitable class of any Penn State student, I found myself questioning why I hated it so much. My class only had about 15 people in it today. We moved the desks into a circle and my professor talked with us about grant proposals.
Then it hit me.
I am privileged to be able to attend an esteemed university like Penn State. Yes, waking up in the morning sucks. And yes, this week and next week are my hell weeks. But this was my decision. No one forced me to attend college This is what I believe will strengthen my future and whatever that entails. I'm not working full time, paying bills, or even cooking every night. I live on campus and everything I could need is within a mile or two of my apartment. I am meeting wonderful, brilliant people who are only bettering my life. I am encountering experiences that I, myself, would not have been able to find at home. I believe my life is truly great.
Rewind to before class as I entered the building. 3 weeks to a month ago getting into Sackett was HELL for me. I have yet to find a handicap-door open button and if there is one at the front entrance there are at least 5 stairs you have to get up first. I had to, with leg up and crutches strong, hold the door open myself, squeeze through and hop up 3 steps to another door. But today!! Today, I walked up to the door, opened it, entered with ease, and got to class no problem. This very miniscule Monday Wednesday Friday routine over the past month has emphasized my resilience. I bounced back from a struggle and now feel more confident in my stride than I did before when I had two healthy working legs. And may I just say, I am feeling pretty kick ass.
Here's the song I listen to when I get stressed or overwhelmed, just thought I'd share.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qybUFnY7Y8w
Just remember. "Let it go, this too shall pass"
Today is just a great day. Happy Friday All!
Confessions of an overly stressed, physically fatigued, and extremely happy college student
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